This is a break from my Ethiopia Trip posts.
Last week I applied for a seasonal, part-time job. I had an interview yesterday and am scheduled for an orientation next Thursday, followed by a two week training. I got a job…..JUST LIKE THAT.
Yesterday, after the two interviews, data entry and grammar test–I felt really good. Like I was needed and wanted. Honestly, it’s the best I’ve felt since returning from from Ethiopia. I was excited. My personality changed instantly.
Today, I feel like “what am i doing”. This will totally disrupt everything in my household and it will be totally chaotic. I’m not ready for this jump. AND FOR WHAT? So I can “feel good”. I fail to notice—or honestly—run away from the people and “job” where I am needed most. RIGHT HERE–AT HOME–WITH MY FAMILY. I’m having a really hard time right now and have been for a while. When I really stop and think about it THIS IS WHAT I REALLY need to be working on and this my “JOB” for now.
Just some random thoughts as I’m 2 hours into my day today.
I’m feeling a little out of sorts right now.